Trying To Be Good...the healing powers of lying, cheating, stealing and drugs.

Trying to Be Good: The Healing Powers of Lying, Cheating, Stealing, and Drugs by popular radio host, theater maker, online personality, and storyteller Emelia Symington Fedy is her dark and comical story of her addiction to self-help and absolutely obsessive odyssey to find inner peace at all costs.

A ruthless inquiry into her own demons, Emelia never lets herself off the hook on her search, and after a lifetime of misadventures - spending close to $90,000 and two decades hunting down shamans, hypnotists, soul advisors, and online gurus; turning to drugs, bad sex, vaginal weightlifting classes, crystal bowl regression ceremonies, and cosmic dolphins trying to fill the void - her spiritual reckoning finally came when the death of her mom coincided with the birth of her first child.

Rocked with grief, Emelia had no choice but to quit her life-long quest for contentment. She quit drugs. She quit yoga. She quits the search. And in turning towards her pain, Emelia finally finds what she’s been longing for her whole life. She can’t escape. She’s here. She can feel it all.