{"product_id":"book-enub","title":"I Love You but I've Chosen Darkness","description":"\u003cb\u003e\u003cb\u003eNAMED A BEST BOOK OF THE YEAR BY \u003ci\u003eTHE WASHINGTON POST, VOGUE,\u003c\/i\u003e \u003ci\u003eENTERTAINMENT WEEKLY\u003c\/i\u003e, NPR, \u003ci\u003eESQUIRE\u003c\/i\u003e, AND \u003ci\u003eKIRKUS\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“There’s some kind of genius sorcery in this novel. It’s startlingly original, hilarious and harrowing by turns, finally transcendent. Watkins writes like an avenging angel. It's thrilling and terrifying to stand in her wake.” —Jenny Offill, author of \u003ci\u003eDept. of Speculation\u003c\/i\u003e and \u003ci\u003eWeather\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eA darkly funny, soul-rending novel of love in an epoch of collapse—one woman’s furious revisiting of family, marriage, work, sex, and motherhood.\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003ci\u003eSince my baby was born, I have been     able to laugh and see the funny side of things. a) As much as I ever did.     b) Not quite as much now. c) Not so much now. d) Not at all.\u003c\/i\u003e Leaving     behind her husband and their baby daughter, a writer gets on a flight for a     speaking engagement in Reno, not carrying much besides a breast pump and a spiraling     case of postpartum depression. Her temporary escape from domestic duties     and an opportunity to reconnect with old friends mutates into an extended romp     away from the confines of marriage and motherhood, and a seemingly     bottomless descent into the past. Deep in the Mojave Desert where she grew     up, she meets her ghosts at every turn: the first love whose self-destruction     still haunts her; her father, a member of the most famous cult in American     history; her mother, whose native spark gutters with every passing year. She     can’t go back in time to make any of it right, but what exactly is her way     forward? Alone in the wilderness, at last she begins to make herself at     home in the world.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e Bold, tender, and often hilarious, \u003ci\u003eI Love You but I’ve Chosen     Darkness\u003c\/i\u003e reaffirms Watkins as one of the signal writers of our     time.","brand":"Penguin Random House","offers":[{"title":"Audiobook","offer_id":49326024687920,"sku":"BDenub","price":20.0,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0879\/2784\/9264\/files\/361712-enub-Square.jpg?v=1733601899","url":"https:\/\/downpour.com\/products\/book-enub","provider":"Downpour","version":"1.0","type":"link"}